Bloody Nose

Really just writing to fulfill my promise to myself that I'd write these more frequently.

So I've been trying these little personal experiments lately, and I'm finding them very interesting. I've been running with the more "militant atheism" approach lately. Not really my style, but I found it to be cool. It seems to piss a lot of people off, but maybe they shouldn't be so damn religious. I heard a writer put it really nicely the other day and called religion a social disorder. One side is able to exert more pressure than the other side. I think every time I deal with Christians, I become more and more of an atheist. They are really an interesting bunch. A little delusional, but interesting. I'm just trying to promote a little doubt. I only know a couple of things for certain, but the biggest thing I know is, I know nothing. I know that most of us know nothing, so it does upset me when people act like they know. I think the next little experiment I'm going to try is lying. Try lying a little bit. Tell some fake stories, say I did something when I didn't. Just see where it takes me.

It seems that I've been trying to find a little motivation in life lately. I keep asking myself what the point of life is. I've been feeling a little unfulfilled lately. My life really doesn't have a lot of momentum. I wake up, surf the interweb, edit videos, go to work, and then come home and sit around. It was Dawson's birthday last week, and I couldn't really think of anything interesting to do. We went and watched Jennifer's Body. It's sad when Jennifer's Body is the most interesting thing I could come up with for my friend's birthday. I guess people my age are usually out getting drunk, but that is just not a scene I can get into. I think that is a culture I really will never understand, and something I don't think I want to understand. Drinking/binge drinking seems like an absolutely ridiculous act to me. I guess being strait edge and not exactly enjoying the company of drunks cuts about 90% of social activities for people my age. Maybe a little wine? That shit is suppose to be good in small amounts, right? I think it was about a year ago, I told myself I am going to try and cut out all the useless people in my life. I think I did a good job dumping this weight. It turns out there is only about 3 people (minus my family) that I can really trust. Good friends of mine, but even friendship is a risky relationship. Many years ago I learned that the level of "love" in friendships is only as good as the amount of "goods" I have to offer. It's kind of a business. There is a song by Anberlin called, "Never Take Friendship Personal," and I live by that because I know friends come and go. Maybe other people have relationships with friends that aren't like this, but I kind of doubt it. They just haven't realized it. This all sounds bad, but that is because we have made it out that way. I don't really know where I'm going with this, but I guess I just wanted to put out there that I'm searching. Searching for something to hold on to. Grab, never let go and just keep running. And running. And running. Until my legs give out, until I just fall over, and go to sleep.

My Ideas Will Get Me Killed

So, I just got done with an epic Facebook argument. Where would we be without the internet? Haha, people are so touchy about religion. I only wish religion didn't exist so we wouldn't have to debate how shitty it is. I can't believe that there are people that still think this way in the 21st century. I'm glad Obama is promoting education, 'cause people need it. Get over your arrogant ideas.

But I digress from what I really wanted to write about.
So, it looks like I might have gotten a chance to teach English in Korea sooner than I might have wanted. It sounds like a truly great opportunity. But, I learned today that it is through the Seventh Day Adventist church. Total bummer! The professor wrote in the e-mail, "So teachers are expected to be very pious in his or her faith." Fuck my life. If I have to go to church or promote the life of Jesus Christ while I'm trying to teach English, Korea's suicide rate might take a jump. I can't lie to myself or to others. I was raised to tell the truth and I agree that it is truly the best way. I always speak the realest shit (can I say that in the same blog where I challenge the intellect of people?). Some people might not like it, but that's too bad. I'm not afraid of the truth. Yes, the truth is scary, but that doesn't mean we should run away from it. Why the hell is the world so religious? Why can't Richard Dawkins just rule over the world?
Ughhh...religion just won't leave me alone.

Far Away Yesterday

If George Bush did one good thing for our country, it is that he politically charged many people. He may have polarized many people, but he helped us understand that if we elect dumb people to represent us, dumb things happen. This is probably why Sarah Palin didn't get elected. McCain's biggest mistake was picking that loony-toon.

Above I state that politicians are elected to represent us, the people. This doesn't seem to be happening. I think people forget that we elected them to push what we want to happen. We call our president our leader, and yes, that is a fair term, but he (and hopefully a her, soon) works for us and not the other way around. Remember that, they are our pawns.
And why hasn't Joe Wilson gotten his ass beat yet? If you search Joe Wilson in Google, the first two sites that pop up are sites that support him. Who the fuck made those websites? Can conservatives actually defend him?

Ron Paul is still a republican. That is the best dude the g.o.p has and they rarely use his name. Instead Sarah Palin and Joe Wilson are their mascots.

Remember when Obama kept Bush's Patriot Act? That still angers me that he kept that. Those republicans sure know how to use their words. What is patriotic about the Patriot Act? Remember this, Obama says he will get us out of Iraq by August 31, 2010. So really, September 2010. I was hoping that it might be a little sooner, but make sure he keeps at least that deadline. Or else...lynch him? Oh shit, too soon.

If God Told You To...

If god told you to kill your mom, your dad, your siblings and your child, would you do it?
If you consider yourself a christian and you say no, they you're not actually a christian. If you say yes, then stay the hell away from me because you're fucking crazy. Either way, religion loses.

I wonder if republicans and conservatives feel weird when Viagra or Cialis commercials come on? They seem to be freaked out over the topic of sex. Grown ass people who feel like sex is the worst thing in the whole entire world. I remember when I was uncomfortable when someone mentioned sex...I was in the third grade. Then I was educated and learned it was a normal thing. Then I went home and jacked off.

One Of Us Died Tonight, Somebody Knows.

So I just started watching Obama's speech about American students on Youtube and I just noticed reoccurring feelings I get every time he gives a speech. The first feeling I always get is excitement. I always think to myself, "this dude is going to say something really good that'll inspire a lot of people." That feeling and thought is quickly pushed aside when ever the camera cuts to the strait forward angle that most speeches are captured with. Then my mood changes to fear and I think to myself, "Shit, this dude is going to get assassinated this time."

Was anyone scared that Bush might get assassinated? Thought never crossed my mind.

Eat, Sleep, Fuck, and Repeat.

In my previous blog, I stated I wanted to write more blogs, and well hot damn, I'm going to get off to a good start.

I think people who say violent video games make our youth more violent are pussies. Pussies and fucking dumb. When I feel violent and aggressive, I channel those emotions through healthy mediums. Lately, I've been playing more Gears of War2 and Call of Duty (the only Call of Duty that fucking matters until Call of Duty 2 comes out [I am going to refer to Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 as Call of Duty 2 from now on]). I also listen to music which helps me vent some of that inner rage. Violent video games to me are cathartic, not harmful. But, everyone is different.

I have joined that large pool of uninsured Americans. My student status has officially expired and I am no longer eligible to remain on my father's health insurance plan. I feel like my arguments for health care reform would be stronger if I wasn't a victim, but now I am a victim needing help. I never fought for reform before because I needed it, I fought for it before because I felt it was the right thing. People deserve to live calm, peaceful lives. What we have now is bull shit, absolute bull shit. I guess we are all playing the waiting game now. If these pussy ass democrats could actually get their shit together and pass something, that'd be kind of nice. Hey democrats, drop your dildos and get to fucking work. That is the problem with the democrats, they are too "open minded" and too many of them are pussies. Just get it done, that is what Bush did and now it is your turn to fuck up the country. Republicans have their shit together. When they have the power, they all move forward (or backwards?). They all agree on something, and push it as hard as they can. Even if they push us all the wrong way and into the shitter, they push. The republicans don't care about compromise, they don't care about the consequences, they just push and push and push. Stop compromising you stupid fucking democrats! The republicans are fucking crazy! Don't listen to them. Don't believe me? Look up Sarah Palin. Every time someone mentions something pro-republican, I will simply point to Sarah Palin. Palin and her history of goofs will be my support. Anytime someone says something pro-democrat, I will call them a pussy. When are these politicians ever going to do something for the people? You are public servants. Obama is coming out with this press conference or whatever where he is going to speak directly to our youth. He is going to explain the importance education. The conservatives already are complaining that he is going to attempt to brainwash the children. Please, shut the fuck up!

I was part of bush's "no child left behind" promise. I feel retarded just being part of that.

Anyone been listening to this Rachel Maddow? She is fucking brilliant! If only she wasn't a butch lesbian.

How come when Harry Potter uses magic, it is considered "witchcraft" to the Christian and the crazy right, but when Jesus uses magic the acts are coined "miracles?" *Sniff, sniff* Does anyone smell that? Yep, it's bull shit and the crazy right talking again (can you smell a group of people talking?!). I can't tell the difference between the Harry Potter bull shit, and the Bible bull shit. Oh right, one has been deemed actual events. The Harry Potter books, right? I think once the people of this world get over religion, we will be better off. We are not that privileged that when we die, we are revived and get to walk golden roads and are fed grapes for sexy ass women. Get over yourself you arrogant human fuck. When we die, we just die. The end. Take care of your body, and you will live a bit longer. The idea of eternal life is truly scary. Look at it this way - if we go to heaven, god is our boss and if we go to hell, satan is our boss. Either way, we are working for someone. Think about the worst boss you have ever had, and thinking about working for that prick for an eternity. Pretty scary huh? Why the hell would you want to work for someone forever, and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever. Makes no sense to me. And think about this, if the devil and god are at war, why would satan torture us when we get to hell? I bet he is trying to build an army strong enough to topple god's kingdom. If anything, I bet he would take care of us and train us so he can finish off that dude god, once and for all. But the Bible teaches us that the devil is a super bad dude. Oh but that's right, the Bible is written from god's point of view. Why would he say anything good about the devil? That is like Bill O'reilly writing a book praising the democrats. It wouldn't happen. At least the devil didn't go tooting his own horn writing gossip about god. So far, the devil seems like a cooler dude than god. But where did I learn about the devil? Oh right, the Bible again. So he probably doesn't exit. If I ever own a book store, I am putting the Bible in the fiction section. Right next to Harry Potter. That'll piss a lot of people off. Probably because it'll make them wonder why the hell a book that starts with B is next to a book that starts with H.

One last topic before I go read 1984 and get some shut eye. Is anyone else glad to see Pfizer get raped by the long dick of the law? The same dick they sucked off so many times to become so fucking rich. $2.3 billion is the sum I saw. That is rape. Pfizer was asked to bend over and when they declined, they were forced to the ground. Begging for mercy, Pfizer took the dick in the ass. (I should start writing porn). I was thinking a couple months ago, and I pissed the fuck off that D.A.R.E lied to me when I was in the 4th grade. D.A.R.E taught me when I was in elementary school that were bad drugs, and good drugs. Get those fucking lies the fuck out of here. There is no such thing as "good drugs." They are all bad for our human bodies. None of that garbage needs to be in our body. You have a headache? Well, that is your body reacting to something it doesn't like. It is your job to find what is causing that reaction. By taking a little pill, you are just covering up the symptoms, not curing the cause. Americans will work harder to cover up symptoms, when they should be attacking the cause. Lazy, fat Americans. It is so easy to just take a poisonous pill, but it takes a little work to understand your body. It is your body, take some time to learn it. I don't take any pills, ever. Now, I think if it is life and death, the choice is obvious. You can either die, or take a poison pill and live. If that is the case, take the poison pill. I think I know why we are all so dumb. Because we take so many damn pills and we are just walking zombies. These chemicals have taken over our bodies. We are slaves to these chemicals, only vessels. I think we should legalize Marijuana because it would be the only fair thing to do. If these companies can sell these pills and make billions of dollars, Marijuana should have an equal chance. I don't smoke, nor do I drink. The legalization of marijuana wouldn't benefit me in the slightest. I just hate to see these stupid laws be so unfair. If it were up to me, cigarettes would be eliminated, alcohol would be eliminated, and all these stupid drugs would be gone. But I understand how successful prohibition was and I know this would never work. So we need to keep these things and if that is the case, everything should have an equal chance. We just need to teach people these things are not good for your body. What we should do is tax the shit out of these products. How much do cigarettes cost these days? In Minnesota, the cigarette tax is $1.05 per pack, and the tax on beer is .15 cents per gallon. Fuck that, tax the shit out of booze. These are things we don't need. I don't hear anyone talking about increasing the tax on booze.

Anywho, I'm actually a nice guy (I think).

Remove The Blood Stains From Your Walls

I don't have anything to write about, which is too often the case for me these days. I remember when I used to write every day. But those were days when I had to vent endlessly. I am hoping in September, I can write more of these blogs, I can read more, I can film and edit more, and I also want to get back to writing some music. I can feel these sparks of creativity inside me, and they want to be more than just sparks. I guess I need a slight push forward. On top of this, I want to get into photography, but hot damn, cameras do not come cheap.

I read there is a Ted Kennedy memoir coming out soon. I bet that would be an interesting read. Right now, I want to read George Orwell's 1984. I'm on page 5 right now. I have trouble reading fiction because while reading, I always try to paint a picture to what I'm reading. It ends up that my eyes are still reading, but my mind is painting a visual. What color is the wall? What is the temperature? Maybe that is why I am into motion pictures. I suck at reading fiction and it isn't because of that fake, made up thing called A.D.D.

Does anyone else enjoy this Michael Bay and Megan Fox feud? Did anyone catch Inglorious Basterds? More importantly, has anyone seen Food, Inc?! I want to see that so badly.

Everyone should check out "The Black Swan" by Story of the Year. Solid, solid record. There was a time when everyone believed Story of the Year was done. I went back and listened to their second album, and yes, those assumptions seemed just. But boy oh boy, did they come back with The Black Swan. I read they are recording now, and I can tell you right now, this little man is looking forward to it. I've always been listening to a lot of Emery, Between The Trees, and I just got my hands on the new The Used. This fall has a pallet full of new records coming out, so my new MP3 will be put to good use.

Suck it.