Word to Your Mother

Starting a blog and coming up with a title for a blog is kind of awkward. I guess it is kind of like starting a snow ball, I think...
Out of all the snow you are standing in, what clump of snow do you feel is the best to start your project. It all looks the same, but after you get going, all you got to do is roll and push and things just start coming together. Ya feel me? I thought you might.

Tuesdays and Thursdays I have like a two hour gap between my first class and last few classes so this is when I write my blog. Tuesday gives me an opportunity to reflect on anything that happened Friday and after of the past week, and this past weekend was pretty eventful.
Thursday I slept over at Dean's dorm. We sat around, watched some NBA, got some food and then we watched The Quiet. A pretty shitty, slow paced, independent movie. It had its moments, like Elisha Cuthbert standing around in her bra with her boobies about to bust out and awkward sexual dialogue. We also had the tube on and in the middle of the we had to stop and watch the Kevin Garnett interview on TNT. They showed an old clip from a past interview that had KG crying because he was so frustrated with losing. They of course didn't cut strait to the video but built toward it and the frustration and heartbreak that KG showed got me a little choked up. I had a little knot in my throat for sure. I don't think a lot of people respect the way he goes about things and how hard he really plays and it makes me sad. I've officially declared that KG is the greatest basketball player I will ever see in my life. It doesn't matter what the future has to offer, I already know there will never be another KG. I know there are going to be a lot of critics to what I just stated and I don't really care. I try to be a reasonable person but this is something I'm going to be stubborn about. Think about what BASKETBALL really means, then get back to me. It sure doesn't mean crossovers, gansta ass headbands and sleeves and 360 dunks. I also feel like people won't understand me because people don't know KG's "makeup." Makeup is the word KG used and I never thought of expressing the attitude and the way someone goes about something as the "makeup" of someones personality. It was a cool way to put it. But I think I understand KG's makeup better then other people. I am not saying I am Kevin Garnett. That would just be stupid. I am not black and gifted haha. But what I'm trying to say is that I understand how he goes about things better then other people. The way he presents himself, the way he is a quiet leader and leads by example, the loyalty he he showed even when others haven't done the same for him, his fire and passion, how he is so humble, honorable, proud ("Kevin Garentt is a proudful man" -Reggie Miller). Its how I go about most things in life. I must sound like a cock giving myself all those great qualities, but sometimes I do feel like I go about things with more passion and loyalty then others do. And like KG I feel that being humble is one of the most important things, and therefore I would never put my self on a pedestal (Haha! "Pussy on a pedestal" but I bet even when he goes home, in his journal, he must jot down how other people are "weaker" than he is. And this is my fucking blog, its my way of expressing myself so fuck you haters haha. Its for me to read two years later and see if I feel the same way about myself and to see if I have grown as a person. As for now, thats how I feel. I mean I don't think anyone else can take a friendly backyard football game as seriously as I. When I lose those games I just want to burn myself alive. It makes me want to sharpen my skills to an NFL level. I remember when we played basketball religiously, I think I played off emotion even more then. I think I've learned to focus my emotions a little better. I also think my passion and my drive made the people around me better basketball and football players. I remember the first time I played basketball with Dean and Jon. Not only basketball, but with any sports. I would have rather eaten horse shit then played on their team. They were horrible. They played with no killer instinct, no knowledge and just unpolished potential. But now, they are respectable athletes and I pray that they are on my team. I know for sure Jon, but can't say for Dean, wouldn't be the athlete he is now without me. I love watching Jon play basketball because that has been my project. He played hockey and baseball before me, but I don't think he played much basketball. When he does well, I feel like I did something good. Last summer we would meet these strangers at the park once or twice a week and play them in a 3 on 3 game. Jon really came into his own towards the end of summer. He resembled a more physical Dirk Nowitski. But Jon still plays without a killers mentality and thats something you just can't teach someone. I'm not trying to say everyone should play sports the way KG does, but what if we applied his mentality to everything we do? We would get a lot farther I think. Sports is just a good way to explain how I feel. Who else could take a friendly teen rated Nintendo game in Super Smash Bros. Melee to such a competitive level. Even little friendly things like that I get fiery about. Oh well, enough making me sound like a fucking prick.
But while I mentioned Melee, I might as well talk about it. He he! It is a fucking good ass game and I think I talk about it each time I write a blog now. I think what appeals to me so much about it is that it feels like its an extension of your personality. How you go about things and think of strategy reflects in the game. Lets face it, I have some stupid ass friends, and some smarter friends and when you play, you can really feel who actually thinks out there moves and who doesn't. Jon is a really good player, but I don't think he thinks out his moves fully but plays of instincts and thats how he kind of is in life. Even on the basketball court and football field. Another thing I love about the game is that its a free for all. I don't mean its everyone for them selves royal rumble style, but I mean there aren't many restrictions to what you can do. It feels like a lot of games filter and handicap bad players so its fun for everyone. In this game, if you're good, you're good, and if you're band, that sucks for you. Go work at it and sharpen your skills. The growth from the first Super Smash to Melee was a huge jump and I'm almost scared to see what Brawl is going to bring us, but excited at the same time because then its a fresh start and I can build myself all over again.
Speaking of football so god damn much, we should all play soon. I know its a 100 below right now, but maybe when it hits about 30 degrees, we should get a game planned. I know I'll be aching to play and "express" (haha, I took a shot at myself) myself after the Super Bowl. Its tough to plan when Jon and Nick have hockey cause obviously their league games take priority over backyard football. Hopefully soon though.

Well, there were a few more things I wanted to touch on but I have to study a little before my Korean test. I wanted to write about our casino trip for Nickoli's birthday while its still fresh in my mind, but it'll have to wait. I can't fuck up another semester.
Late!