Finish Her!

Korean was not fun haha.
Now I'm back in the MLK lab burning some time since I got off at 2:30 and Barnett gets off at 5:30. I brought a lot of reading with that I need to catch up on, but I thought about it and I know I won't read for 3 hours strait. So I'm going to kill some time before I dig myself into the library.

I need to finish my casino story. I don't know where to pick up from, all my momentum has gone. I guess I was talking about self discipline. No one is perfect and there must be something out there that no one can fight. Gambling isn't my kryptonite, but I want to find out what is.(Gasp!) Maybe I'm perfect!? Heee! (Blush). NOT! I know I'm not, thats why I want to know. So that when I have to face a weakness, I am aware of it. At one point Jon put in 5 dollars into a poker machine and just cashed out without playing a hand. That means he put in a 5 dollar bill and got 5 dollars worth of quarters in return. Maybe he likes quarters or something, but I would rather have a $5 bill. Which reminds me, I read recently that we might be getting rid of the penny. Since the price of copper is on the rise and pennies are barely worth anything. I heard if we do get rid of the penny, we will be able to trade in a penny for a nickel. I'm not the smartest when it come to math, but if I carried my twos right, thats like 5 times the amount. That'd be sweet! Alright, so Nick and Jon go broke, Mitch and Andy cash out and we dip. Back into the fucking cold! The ride home was quiet. I'm pretty sure everyone was exhausted (4 am). I have a casino mission I want to complete maybe within 2-3 years. I want to bring around $2 worth of quarters and make about $50. I'd be sticking it to the man...I think. I also want to go to a live table, none of this video crap and watch Dean or Jon or anyone do their thing. Would we get in trouble for having cheerleaders?

Anyone (males) ever go into a shitter and there is piss all over the seat? Who the fuck is so bad at pissing that they manage to get the WHOLE seat wet. Its not like they nicked one side of it either. There is piss all around. Did they miss and while attempting to recover go to far? I thought I had this whole thing figured out. This one time I walked into a bathroom and I saw an old man walk out of a shitter. I just needed to pee so I took it. What I saw was fucked up. Liquids, everywhere. So I thought to myself, maybe its been old men who have been pissing on these seats all this time. Maybe they stand there pushing and when the pee actually comes out of their decaying cocks it surprises them and pushes it self in different directions like a uncontrolled fire hose would. I thought I had it all figured out, but the other day, I walked into a shitter to take a piss and a young dude came out. His mess wasn't as violent as the old guys, but he still managed to do his best hurricane Katrina imitation. To everyone, please, don't miss.
Speaking of old guys, I've been thinking about the health of my friends and I. Counting out Andy, it seems like all my friends and I are getting fatter and fatter and more out of shape. I look at pictures of Mitch and Dawson and I can't believe how fat they are now. Andy has taken meat out of his diet, and although I'm not concerned enough about my fatness to diet that extremely, I keep my shit in check. I don't snack, don't drink pop and try to limit myself to 3 medium meals a day. I just wish I could excercise more. Thinking about it, our bodies are done growing and maturing. From here on out, we are rotting bodies. Its sad. I don't want to look like Dawson in 6 months. Its scary to think that pretty soon, we are going to deal with fading and graying hair. I think this again leads to self control. Mitch said he was going to diet and only eat white meat. The very next day, he couldn't resist a McDonald's double cheeseburger. If I dieted, I don't think self discipline would be a problem. I think its awesome that Andy converted himself into a vegetarian cold turkey (or should I saw cold fake turkey). It shows something about his personality when he can stop gambling like he did and change his diet the way he did.
Anyone notice that when you are staring at a hot chick, she always knows you're looking at her and catches you staring? This past week, I've caught a lot of people staring at me. I am NOT saying I am hot haha, HELLLLLLLLLZ NO! I think people like staring at ugly people too, to make them selves feel better. Think about it, when a handicap or a retard walks into the room, you look. I just like peoples reaction when they get caught. I think before school started up again, some of tried to force ourselves to keep staring when caught. It is hard cause you have to react so quickly and you are used to pulling yourself out. Try it.

The other day Dean and I went to the rec center to play basketball. There was this bitch there who that she was all good. First, you're a girl, you must suck at basketball. That sounds sexist, and I'm not sexist, but I am very skeptical about female athletes. If you made me play Lisa Leslie 1 on 1, she would dominate me. Shes black! But when I was being raised, the women around me were even skeptical about female athletes. They told me, girls will never be as good as boys when it comes to sports. And for the most part, its true. Don't come up with a stupid ass example like, me and Lisa Leslie. She is a professional WNBA player. Make her play a professional male player and she wouldn't stand a chance. I respect female athletes, I think its great thing. But my Mom once told me, if she had the choice of watching a girls Wimbledon match, for example, or a male match, it wouldn't even be a question. And thats the truth. I offer you and ticket to a Wolves game or Linx game, but you can only take one. What would you pick? Ya, I thought so. But again, I am not ragging on girls playing sports. I am writing this cause this bitch at the rec center did not represent girls sports well. She would yell and direct people like she knew everything about basketball. Let me tell you, she knew close to nothing. And if I remember correctly, and I'm pretty sure I am, she didn't catch one pass. Even the easiest pass she had bounce off her hands. And she would always put blame on other people. I hate people like that. When I lose, even though I know it may have not been my fault, I still put it on myself. Like in football, even though I know I'm the only that gave 100% effort, I still put the lost on me. It eats at me that my teammates didn't play as hard as me, and it eats at me that the other team didn't play their hardest and still won, but it is wrong to point fingers. I put it on myself to play at 200% next time. Oh, when we were introducing ourselves before the game, she had to put in that her high school team won state. Wasn't because of you whore.

Last night I bought tickets for the Anberlin, Bayside, Meg&Dia and Jonezetta concert on March 3rd. The tickets were suppose to be really cheap, but the special offer sold out and I was forced to buy through Ticketmaster. I wanted to buy them earlier, but I had to wait for a couple of people to get back to me on if they wanted to go. Stupid Amish friends. Buying them from ticketmaster also made it so we didn't get the Meet N Greet special backstage passes which is pretty gay. I don't really get star struck, and I've never cared for backstage passes and autographs, but a closer look at Meg and Dia would'a been nice haha, ya feel me? It'll still be sweet because the purchasing of those tickets marks what might be the greatest weekend EVER! March 3rd thru the 4th equals a weekend full of friends and music. Is there anything else in life? (Sports). I hope I die that weekend so you all can put, "Died a Happy Man" on my gravestone. The weekend is going to blow me away. Double Header, March 3rd thru the 4th. If anyone else wants to come with, please do! I would love it. I'm going to be such a happy person. The Anberlin/Meg&Dia concert is on the 3rd (Sat) and costs about $22 (Through ticketmaster). The Underoath/Armor/Taking Back is a little more spendy ($36). Do it!

Before I go to the library and catch up on my U.S history post civil war, I must hit on one more topic. Bad breath. I hate it. Sometimes I get scared I have bad breath and I just don't know it and the people around me are just being nice. I wonder how people don't know they have bad breath!? PLEASE, if my breath is kicking, let me KNOW! I want to know when my breath is stink so I start working on the times my breath isn't so fresh. Like, I would think people could smell that something is stink right under their nose, but people really seem stupid about it. Many times, people just carry on like nothing is wrong. Thats what makes me think that sometimes my breath is stinky and I don't know about it, since everyone is doing it. Wouldn't it make sense if the person knew their breath is stink, they would fix it? It confuses me.

Well, I must go read Teddy Roosevelt's bullshit now.

Please Don't Fuck Me Google

Google is all fucked up right now and I guess EBlogger or Blogspot or whatever it is I use is a Google service. Now I am forced to write a blog on MySpace and then copy and paste it to Blogspot. The scary thing about that is, MySpace doesn't back up drafts as you write the blog and I've been fucked by that many of times. Pray for me.

So everyday Tuesday I have a Career and Major Exploration class. This weeks reading was all about finding yourself, you passions, your skills and talents. It gave tips on how you could do some soul searching and they had a whole half chapter explaining that keeping a journal will really help. Blogs anyone? Word.

This past Sunday was Nick's birthday and we didn't have anything planed for Sunday, but we had a lot of crap ready for Saturday. I got home from church and trucked it over to Jon's in the blistering cold. When I got there Jon was just leaving. Nick and Dean were in the basement playing the old Super Smash Bros. They offered me a spot, but I refused because I was afraid that if I played that, it would throw off my sensitivity for Melee (Maybe this is why I looked better in Melee over the weekend? And maybe actually didn't get better). We called up Andy and asked him if he wanted to join us and he did. After that, we just had to wait for Mitch's punk ass to get over so we could dip out. We got a little lost finding the place. We got off on a couple of wrong exits and did some loop-de-loops, but we managed to find it. When we got there, the first period was about the end with Jon's team up 1 to 0. The game went back and forth and I believe Jon's team went into the 3rd period down by one. Dean and Mitch purchased a "chuck a puck" which they got to use in between the 2nd and 3rd period to try and win a prize. They lost. In the end, Jon's team lost by one. After hockey we got home and played some Melee I believe. After that we went over to the hot spot a.k.a Applebees! Applebees was full of rich conversations and probably one of the most serious ones since the religion talk we had during winter break. We touched on many topics. I brought up history of the U.S and how it affected the whole world and that branched off to many things. Basically, I feel like we are all fucked and that we are all slaves. To who? I don't know. Andy said the rich white man and I guess thats the best way to explain it for now. Maybe I'm to picky and I should appreciate the things I have more. Another topic we talked about that I really liked was Time (But before I get into that, this Britney Spears song, "Breath on Me" that is playing right now is fuggin tight. It should be in a Lexus commercial). Prince, or the artist formerly known as, was brought up cause he doesn't believe in time. It was a weird topic and I can't really explain it, but it was interesting. I also brought up intuition. Why it seems like some people have a "smarter" intuition that leads them to better things and some people are a weaker intuition that leads them to bad ideas and makes them look dumb. Intuition led us to talk about love at first sight, which most of the people don't believe in. But lately, I've been thinking about it, and sometimes I feels like I have the "smart" intuition. And what if I really could just feel that I love someone on first sight? Andy also asked if we thought there was only one real perfect match for us in the world. I never thought of that. It kind of ate at me that I didn't have an opinion on that. I just didn't and still don't know how I feel about that. Oh, on the way to Applebees, we drove in two separate cars and we tried to use my iTrip on both cars. I guess it worked.
After the Hot Spot, we dropped Dickoli off and went to the Casino. We got to Mystic Lake and parked in the garage and it was COLD AS FUCK! I wanted to burn myself alive just so I could feel warmth one more time before I died, cause I was going to freeze anyways. We got there and we all had to flash our I.D's to the security lady, who I think was half retarded. Not sure. Anywho, she tells Nick that he can't go in jokingly. Dean ran down the stairs and I ran down the escalator and I beat him. He is slow. Well it was the first time I had been to casino and now I was like what now? Mitch sounded like he had the most casino experience and I thought he was going to show us the ropes. I guess I was kind of naive to think that Mitch would actually be a good "tour guide." We just wandered around for the first 10 minutes and then Jon manned up and put a dollar in a slot and pulled it. I don't remember if he won on his first pull, or his second pull. I do remember he won fairly early and its not like he won a lot, he put in one dollar and out came two but the rest of the guys cheered so loud that everyone must have assumed he won a jackpot. This cheering happened a couple of more times there and each time people would all look at where the money pours out. I haven't been to the casino enough to fully understand, but it seems like there is this tension in the air, where if someone wins, everyone has to know and know how much. Its kind of a team oriented tension, but at the same time, its a very jealous tension. Before I forget, I must write that SMOKING SUCKS! A white man should make a casino and should follow Minnesota law where there is no indoors smoking. They even have a person walking around selling cigs. Made my clothes all stinky to. I am going to dress like a slob next time I go to the casino because smoking is for slobby people haha! After that, we walked over to the video poker. Andy sits down, puts in a dollar and starts playing. Shortly after Mitch joins him. Next thing I know, Andy is done and I ask him, "How much did you lose?" He actually came up $12 in a matter of like 3 minutes. He called it a night. Smart man. Mitch went up and down, but at the end of that video poker trip, he came out with a $22 voucher. We walked around and hit up a few more spots. We found a little drinking station and we all got some pop. I've been avoiding pop unless I have to drink it and I couldn't find the water so I had me a Sprite. Which was dumb, cause the water tab was right under the pink lemonade. Oh well, I figure I put 50 cents worth of my money into their money sucking machines, I might as well get a pop out of it. I lost 50 cents to video poker and I think Dean lost a dollar in there somewhere. I really like Andy's and Dean's discipline. Mitch, Jon and Nick couldn't stop. I like to think that I have good self discipline and it was weird to see how my friends couldn't stop. They couldn't control them selves. It made me wonder, is there something out there that would do that to me? Something that I want so much, or think is so amazing that I wouldn't be able to control myself it was in front of me. Its scary to think about, I hope I am strong enough to fight anything thrown my way. Maybe I will bring it up at the Hot Spot one of these times. It would be great to talk about and see if people know their weaknesses. Dean wanted to do the Chris Tucker scene from Rush Hour 2 and yell "This one is for Mandella."

There was a few more things about the casino I wanted to talk about, but my Korean class is about to start so now I must dip. Hopefully I remember them for next time.