Jesus! (Just Kidding)

It sure has been a long time since I got my Charles Dickens on. My life has been so busy, and by busy I mean not busy at all. Basically my days consist of Call of Duty: Modern Warfare2 and work. It's a pretty sad life, but I don't have any good alternatives. Since Modern Warfare 2 has been released a full 49 days ago, a whole 7 of those days has been dedicated to Modern Warfare 2. That's 168 hours of Modern Warfare in 1176 hours of life. I actually hit the 7 day mark earlier today. I'm not proud of that fact.

Although it might not seem like it, I have actually been partaking in other activities. I completed another wedding project last week, and I've been bouncing e-mails trying to get a job in Korea. I really hope things work out, because my life really needs a change of scenery and something to challenge me as a human being. Thinking about being away from home for a full year without being able to visit on the weekends is a frightening thought, but something I think I need. I'm going to be 23 years of age next week, and I think I need something to push me forward. I think when I get settled in Korea, I will really enjoy my time there. I would bet that I'd stay there for two years. When I come back home, I hope to continue with school. As of right now, I think being a sociology professor at the U of M would be a really cool job. I hate thinking about the future, 'cause my brain starts to hurt and I just get scared. I'll just take it slowly and cautiously.

I have been going to this new church in Minnetonka that I have enjoyed very much so far. The youth group teacher there is very open minded and fair and I have learned a lot from that class. Going to that church made me realize that I really enjoy meeting new people and that I am comfortable around anybody. Something about being able to hold my own intellectually gives me the confidence to approach new people without fear. Another reason I think I will enjoy my experience in Korea. I'm going to pretty much have to make acquaintance with everyone I run into. The exception being the few family members I have in Korea. This new church makes me want to visit other churches. My short time at the Minnetonka church has really progressed my search for an "answer." I think I'm pretty much settled that there is no God. It's ridiculous to think there is an invisible space man, that watches over all of us and controls everything that occurs in our lives. When I was a little kid, I used to think Santa Claus existed, then I learned that one would have to be insane to continue to think he existed. It took me a little bit longer to figure this out about God, but anyone who thinks he exists has to be crazy. However, my thought has shifted from the existence of God, to thinking about if religion can actually be a good thing. Is it worth having the world live a lie, if it can bring good? Are we focusing on the extremes of religion so much, that we miss the good things? That is an answer I am seeking now.

I'd be playing Modern Warfare 2 right now, if it wasn't for Richard. If feels kind of stupid having two X-Boxes in one house, but it might happen in our house. Splitting one X-Box has been a chore.
Anywho, time for bed. I've been reading The God Delusion every night before bed this week. At this rate, I'll be done with the book sometime next year.

Night!