I'm running out of names here

Tomorrow (Friday) is the last day of class for my spring semester of 2007. Pretty crazy how quickly it went. I have a short Korean final presentation and in my rock discussion we will be reviewing for our final. Sounds like a pretty easy day. And of course, Lunch with my wonderful mother.

I wish I lived in New Jersey because this weekend they are hosting Bamboozle 2007. For those of you not familiar with Bomboozle, it is the emo, indie, screamo, post-hardcore, punk, etc, equivalent of "We Fest" (is that how you spell it? I was going to spell it Wii Fest, but after Wii came out everything is Wii to me). I think, I don't listen to much country. If anyone wants to road trip it right when I get home on Friday, lets do this damn thing. Oh, p.s, I don't have a car, tee hee. It'd be such an amazing way to kick off my summer break and such a good warm up for Warped Tour 2007 which is going to be amazing, no doubt about it. I hope everyone is able to experience Warped at least one time in their life. But back to Bamboozle, tons of amazing bands that I would love to see live. I am making it a life goal to go there once. Check this friggin list:

Saturday May 5th

PEP RALLY
10:00 - 10:40 DJ PRIME
10:40 - 10:45 PARADE OF NOTHINGS FEATURING POP POP PONTIFF & THE FAULTER BOYS
10:45 - 10:50 ELMO'S MEADOWLANDS ADDRESS
10:50 - 11:30 ANDREW WK
11:30 - 11:31 RIBBON CUTTING CEREMONY
11:31 - 12:00 DJ PRIME

MAIN STAGE A
11:45 - 12:05 SOMEONE SAY SOMETHING
12:25 - 12:55 PHIL BENSEN
1:25 - 1:55 BOYS LIKE GIRLS
2:25 - 2:55 SILVERSTEIN
3:25 - 3:55 BAYSIDE
4:25 - 4:55 CARTEL
5:25 - 5:55 SAY ANYTHING
6:30 - 7:05 NEW FOUND GLORY
7:40 - 8:20 HELLOGOODBYE
9:00 - 10:30 MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE

MONSTER STAGE
12:05 - 12:25 END OF AN ERA
12:55 - 1:25 THE RECEIVING END OF SIRENS
1:55 - 2:25 CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR
2:55 - 3:25 PARAMORE
3:55 - 4:25 THE SPILL CANVAS
4:55 - 5:25 THE STARTING LINE
5:55 - 6:30 MC HAMMER
7:05 - 7:40 SAVES THE DAY
8:20 - 9:00 MUSE

CARNIVALE STAGE
12:05- 12:25 SAY WHEN
12:45 - 1:15 THE FORECAST
1:45 - 2:15 THE PINK SPIDERS
2:45 - 3:15 VALENCIA
3:45 - 4:15 LYDIA
4:45 - 5:15 SECONDHAND SERENADE
5:45 - 6:15 THIS PROVIDENCE
6:45 - 7:15 GREAT AMERICAN FREEDOM MACHINE (Motion City Soundtrack)
7:55 - 8:25 THE ROCKET SUMMER

SAINTS & SINNERS STAGE
11:45 - 12:05 MUTINY
12:25 - 12:45 THE HIGH COURT
1:15 - 1:45 PERMANENT ME
2:15 - 2:45 MAYLENE & THE SONS OF DISASTER
3:15 - 3:45 MEN WOMEN & CHILDREN
4:15 - 4:45 HOUSTON CALLS
5:15 - 5:45 HIT THE LIGHTS
6:15 - 6:45 BEARFORT (Thursday)
7:15 - 7:25 ELMO'S BIG BAND
7:25 - 7:55 YESTERDAY'S 2MORROW (Van Stone)
8:25 - 9:00 LORDI

RIOT SQUAD STAGE
11:30 - 11:50 THE LOOK
12:10 - 12:30 AND THEN THERE WERE MACHINES
12:55 - 1:25 FORGIVE DURDEN
1:55 - 2:25 THE AKAS
2:55 - 3:25 LIMBECK
3:55 - 4:25 MANCHESTER ORCHESTRA
4:55 - 5:25 THE CRIBS
5:55 - 6:25 HOT ROD CIRCUIT
6:55 - 7:25 MONEEN
7:55 - 8:25 CAPTURED BY ROBOTS

MACBETH STAGE
11:50 - 12:10 VAMPIRE FOR HIRE
12:35 - 12:55 SKULL MOTION
1:25 - 1:55 PLAYRADIOPLAY
2:25 - 2:55 RONNIE DAY
3:25 - 3:55 MOROS EROS
4:25 - 4:55 MADINA LAKE
5:25 - 5:55 THE AUDITION
6:25 - 6:55 MEG & DIA
7:25 - 7:55 THE ALMOST
8:25 - 8:55 THE HUSH SOUND

BAMBOOZLE TV STUDIO
12:35 - 1:05 WE THE KINGS
1:20 - 1:50 HOLIDAY PARADE
2:05 - 2:35 ENVY ON THE COAST
3:00 - 3:30 THE LOCALS (The Matches)
3:50 - 4:20 THRICE
4:30 - 4:45 DAN BOULGER
5:00 - 5:30 BIKER WOMEN (The Sleeping)
5:50 - 6:20 FOREVER IN MOTION
6:30 - 7:00 NEW ATLANTIC
7:20 - 7:40 FAKE GIMMS
8:00 - 8:20 BETRAYAL

PASS THE MIC LEFT STAGE
11:45 - 12:05 ENDLESS ESCAPE
12:25 - 12:45 RENDER
1:05 - 1:30 THE SUNSTREAK
1:50 - 2:20 HIGH CLASS ELITE
2:45 - 3:10 ROOKIE OF THE YEAR
3:50 - 4:25 WHOLE WHEAT BREAD FT ROB BASE & DJ EZ ROCK
4:55 - 5:10 BERT KREISCHER
5:30 - 5:45 MITCH FATEL
6:05 - 6:15 MIKE BOCCHETTI
6:15 - 6:30 DONNELL RAWLINGS
7:00 - 7:30 JUST SURRENDER
8:00 - 9:00 THE LIAM SHOW

PASS THE MIC RIGHT STAGE
12:05 - 12:25 THE IRONBOUND
12:45 - 1:05 GROUND TO MACHINE
1:30 - 1:50 CAPITOL RISK
2:20 - 2:45 SO THEY SAY
3:10 - 3:35 PATENT PENDING
3:35 - 3:50 NICK THUNE
4:25 - 4:55 THE CASKET SALESMEN
5:10 - 5:30 MAYBRIDGE
5:45 - 6:05 RED LIGHT GREEN LIGHT
6:30 - 7:00 BETWEEN THE TREES
7:30 - 8:00 JEFFREE STAR

Sunday May 6th

MAIN STAGE A
12:05 - 12:45 BRAND NEW
1:15 - 1:45 JEDI MIND TRICKS
2:15 - 2:45 THE EARLY NOVEMBER
3:15 - 3:45 MAE
4:15 - 4:45 ARMOR FOR SLEEP
5:15 - 5:45 THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS
6:15 - 6:50 THRICE
7:25 - 8:05 TAKING BACK SUNDAY
8:50 - 10:15 LINKIN PARK

MONSTER STAGE
11:45 - 12:05 CORDOVA
12:45 - 1:15 YOUNG LOVE
1:45 - 2:15 RELIENT K
2:45 - 3:15 FROM FIRST TO LAST
3:45 - 4:15 CIRCA SURVIVE
4:45 - 5:15 KILLSWITCH ENGAGE
5:45 - 6:15 YELLOWCARD
6:50 - 7:25 JACKS MANNEQUIN
8:05 - 8:50 WEIRD AL YANKOVIC

CARNIVALE STAGE
11:45 - 12:05 RECKLESS SONS
12:25 - 12:50 THE SECRET HANDSHAKE
1:20 - 1:50 ANBERLIN
2:20 - 2:50 LYDIA
3:20 - 3:50 DAPHNE LOVES DERBY
4:20 - 4:50 ALL TIME LOW
5:20 - 5:50 THE SLEEPING
6:20 - 6:50 PLAIN WHITE T'S
7:20 - 7:50 VAN STONE
8:20 - 8:50 LORDI

SAINTS & SINNERS STAGE
12:05 - 12:25 FOUR STORIES
12:50 - 1:20 SAINT CAINE
1:50 - 2:20 DROP DEAD, GORGEOUS
2:50 - 3:20 HASTE THE DAY
3:50 - 4:20 THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA
4:50 - 5:20 IT DIES TODAY
5:50 - 6:20 THE BLED
6:50 - 7:20 NORMA JEAN
7:50 - 8:20 AS I LAY DYING

RIOT SQUAD STAGE
11:35 - 12:00 BLESS THE FALL
12:25 - 12:50 THE OOHLAS
1:20 - 1:50 THE DEAR HUNTER
2:20 - 2:50 SCHOOLYARD HEROES
3:20 - 3:50 HALIFAX
4:20 - 4:50 STATE RADIO
5:20 - 5:50 RX BANDITS
6:20 - 6:50 XCANUCKX (Silverstein)
7:20 - 7:50 JULIETTE & THE LICKS
8:20 - 8:50 CAPTURED BY ROBOTS

MACBETH STAGE
12:00 - 12:25 NORA
12:50 - 1:20 SHERWOOD
1:50 - 2:20 THE MATCHES
2:50 - 3:20 FAIR TO MIDLAND
3:50 - 4:20 SCARY KIDS SCARING KIDS
4:50 - 5:20 ENVY ON THE COAST
5:50 - 6:20 THE DEATH OF... (Hawthorne Heights)
6:50 - 7:20 CATCH 22
7:50 - 8:20 THE JONAS BROTHERS

BAMBOOZLE TV STUDIO
12:15 - 12:35 PHIL BENSEN
12:40 - 1:05 SECONDHAND SERENADE
1:10 - 1:35 THE SPILL CANVAS
1:50 - 2:15 DANGER:RADIO
2:30 - 2:50 ROOKIE OF THE YEAR
3:05 - 3:30 KYLE & NAT
3:35 - 4:00 RETARDOBOT (Madina Lake)
4:25 - 4:50 JACKS MANNEQUIN
5:05 - 5:35 TREATY OF PARIS
5:50 - 6:20 AMBER PACIFIC
6:35 - 7:05 QUIET DRIVE
7:20 - 7:50 THE GRADUATE
8:05 - 8:25 COMMAND RADIO

PASS THE MIC STAGE RIGHT
11:40 - 12:00 CONDITIONS
12:20 - 12:45 WE ARE THE FURY
1:10 - 1:35 DRIVE BY
1:55 - 2:20 DAVE MELILLO
2:40 - 3:00 POWERSPACE
3:15 - 3:45 REVOLUTION MOTHER
4:10 - 4:35 MONTY ARE I
4:50 - 5:15 MELEE
5:40 - 5:55 SHANE MAUSS
6:10 - 6:35 STATUS GREEN
7:05 - 7:25 MORE LIKE THE MOON
7:45 - 8:05 PERFUMA
8:25 - 8:55 ROBERT KELLY

PASS THE MIC STAGE LEFT
12:00 - 12:20 STEREO SKYLINE
12:45 - 1:10 CLARA LOFARO
1:35 - 1:55 FOUR LETTER LIE
2:20 - 2:40 THE MURDER & THE HARLOT
3:00 - 3:15 CHRIS KANIK
3:45 - 4:10 KENOTIA
4:35 - 4:50 PETE CORREALE
5:15 - 5:40 CAFFEINE
5:55 - 6:10 JOSH SPEAR
6:35 - 7:05 MIKE BIRBIGLIA
7:25 - 7:45 BLACKTOP MOURNING
8:05 - 8:25 COUNTERFIT PENNIES

If you are a rock fan, tell me you didn't pee pee your pants a little? Well actually don't, cause thats nasty. I wish I could fly right about now.

Lately, I've been thinking about making my blogs private because my blogs sometimes get kind of juicy because I like to think and blog about taboo topics. Yes they are taboo, but they are real life topics and I hate to sidestep them, but I don't need negativity from commenters. I really like hearing about from other people because more perspectives mean more knowledge, but if people can't respond with a respectful and open minded tone, then I just don't want to hear it. 90% of me blogging is so I can collect my thoughts and get them on paper (or digital paper?) so I can organize what I really think and so I can come back and look at them in the future. The 10% is so I can hear what people think, because again, being multicultured is very important I think. Being ignorant from what other people are thinking and closing your self off from other thoughts should be a crime punishable by death, or castration, either will do. So I will see how this works out and I will begin to experiment with closed blogs depending on things.
I have a problem and that problem is that I like to talk to much and I like to ask to many question about thoughts and values. Maybe this is why I get into trouble with so many of my blogs. This problem has only come up recently after I discovered my love for human thought. I wrote in my blog notes that I was going mention this and I was going to talk about how maybe I should shut the fuck up a little from now on. No one wants to hear me ramble about how I think life is inevitably confusing and no one wants to hear my unarticulated and non poetic thoughts. But then I read a blog and I told my self "screw people, they can kiss my ass," and if they don't want to hear my philosophy on life, well to bad. I'm going to force feed them until they puke. Here is the blog I read that changed my perspective:

Do what you want to do. Live how you want to live. No one has a claim over your life and your opinions. On this tour a book had been given to me called: Uncommon Sense. Sort of the companion book of Common Sense, finishing off what Thomas Paine began. A very political, or should I say unpolitical book, so for those afraid of new ideas please don't venture off to begin this book. Anyway, aside from all the political "nonsense" if you will, which I found to be such a rude awakening and keen eye opener, refreshing, blah blah blah, near the end of the book I found an idea that I believe could or should appeal to all of you. The book began to get very personal, portraying a scenario that could accurately describe my own life, much to the delight of the author I'm sure. He began to say things like, "why do you think people turn to all these entertainments of movies, and music, food, woman (ugh!)?" I always thought engaging in these activities was a perfectly healthy thing to do until I read the next couple lines..."to escape!" The authors voice echoed re-percussively in my head. To escape from what? "To escape from BOREDOM! To escape from lack of purpose!" Curiously I read a bit further. Well everybody tries to answer the stupid-get you nowhere, unimportant, unnecessary question: what is the purpose of life? All right tough guy, try to defy every text book, every philosophical pamphlet in your little political opinion book. He wrote, "The purpose of life is to live FREE." Completely unprepared and unwilling to be moved I found myself stunned: to live free. To live how you want. Do what you want. LIve how you want to live. So now, we arrive back to the important topic here. The topic of tour. Yes the topic being discussed between Saves the Day, The Deer Hunter, Say Anything and us - Meg and Dia. I'm going to go ahead and throw it out here. Feel free to find my house and egg it. Find my car and empty out the air from my tires. Publicly denounce me. Whatever you want. Just don't you DARE touch Frou Frou, my stuffed cat. Anyway, here it comes: I don't find The Get Up Kids to be legendary. There, I said it! All the respect if you ever had any. Gone out the window. Do what you want to do. Live how you want to live. Uh huh. You know that guy Chris Conelly, yeah, that's the one. He kind of sings and writes and is Saves the Day, the legend, the pioneer. And Max Bemis, yeah the wonder boy genius. Well, they all know. They all like The Get Up Kids. I'm pretty sure, The Get Up Kids wouldn't stick a Meg and Dia cd in for longer than 2 minutes. Perfect. Cool. They don't like it. I don't like it. You don't like it. If you don't like the Beatles that's fine. If you don't like purple. That's fine. If you don't like us you're going to Hell. If you don't like scrambled eggs cool. Granted some opinions are a bit more risky to state publicly than others. But that's how you grow. This is how you become your OWN individual, by judging and discerning your OWN opinions based on knowledge you YOURSELF have discovered. That's who you are. Don't fear it. Do what you want to do. Live how you want to live. Maybe, like in my case, an individual on the tour whom I respect in one of the above mentioned bands might come up to you and say, "Hey you know your OUTRAGEOUS comment about the Get Up Kids?" (here is where they look back and forth tentatively just to be sure no one is listening), "well, I kind of agree with you". Do what you want to do. Live how you want to live.
-Meg Frampton

Here is what I wrote in response to her blog:
Dearest Meg Frampton,

I loved reading this, I can relate it to a lot of recent events in my own life. Sorry if this comment turns out to be super long, I'm kind of bad at articulating my thoughts and feelings.

I write this comment like my questions and concerns are actually going to be answered, but you never know. I assume you guys are very busy and I'm not blaming you guys at all. And its not only you guys I want to hear from, I want to hear from anyone that has any input. Life is so confusing and the more presepctives I learn about, the better I feel.

And is it scary that I know your whole name even though we have never met? Is it scary that we all talk to you so casually even though we probably know nothing about you?

Anywho, I think I am going to search for those two books and read them over my summer break. Oh, I don't mean to digress but while I'm on the topic of summer, don't you guys dare skip Minnesota again while on the Warped Tour...or else...or else...umm...Frou Frou. Ya! Frou Frou sucka! But I love philosophical conversations because if we can't understand one self and how the human mind and how human nature works, there is no point in living I think. I hate how there is so much focus and energy put into scientific advancements and political justifications when we barely know how to live our lives as human beings. Thats why I love it when you guys actually write about your lives and not whats going on musically because you guys really do open up philosophical doors for everyone. Stimulation is a great thing I think.

It sounds like you agree with what you learned from the book, and yes, I think it is a good message too, but there will always be a dichotomy of some sort in every aspect of life. Thats what makes life so confusing and complicated. I think the most important thing in life in balance. I think this world is so crazy you really can't go all out on one thing. Maybe you can go all out on love? Love is something everyone could use more of? But after you think about it, there can be arguments made for how that might be stupid. See, its all to confusing to me and I told you I can't articulate well. And really I don't know where I am going with all this, but I hope it makes a little sense to everyone. So yes, live the way you want to, follow what you believe in because really there is no wrong or right. Do what makes you happy.

How I wish I could just have a short conversation with you guys or people with minds like yours. The human "thought" is a very beautiful thing.

Sometimes I feel like I contradict myself and I feel like a huge hypocrite. Sometimes I feel like I am better than everyone and sometimes I feel like I know nothing. Sometimes I feel Aristotle and sometimes I feel like a big dummy...(Bush...pwah haha, thats mean). Sometimes I feel like I just shouldn't say anything because I will most likely change my opinion on it later and then someone will use my previous statement against me. Sometimes I feel loved, sometimes I feel like no one is there. Sometimes I wish I was naive, stupid, and ignorant because what you don't know really doesn't hurt you. And a lot of the times I don't know how to get my feelings on paper or can't speak what I'm feeling deep down inside because it is so far down in my soul. I use a lot of intuition and people without strong intuition will probably never feel what I feel. Human life and our society really is to confusing to put into words and to keep consistent, so sometimes I just fuck it (I really don't, I always try to be politically correct and respectful and its hard for me to change). I can't please everyone so do what I think and want and say what I want when I want. I brought up in a previous blog how I wanted to be more impulsive, and maybe deep down inside, I knew this would be therapeutic to me but didn't have an excuse to do it. I was actually not going to try it because its to risky, but with some help, I think maybe I can loosen up a little. On Tuesday night I went to go eat with Dean and it was the last time I need to stay at his place this semester. I was going to give him some money since he bought me dinner at a U of M cafeteria with his Ucard and I was going to give him some money since he let me stay at his place all semester but then I stopped and I didn't. Why? I'm not 100% sure. Maybe it is because I'm a greedy fuck. But I thought more and more about it and the excuse I came up with was that even if I give him this money, it won't make him like me more. Sure he will like me a little more for the next 30 minutes but when that appreciation wears off, its back to normal. Giving him that money doesn't mean he will be in my life 20 years from now. This is how I imagined my life with all of my friends. Like I always say, I am a loyal person and I always imagine being with the same group of people until the end but if they don't buy into my system, it doesn't matter. And let me tell you, most of them don't buy into this idea, all most all of them don't. So I thought about it, and I wanted to give him $20-$30 because I really appreciated and still appreciate what he did for me, but really he won't be in my life 20 years from now and I will just be down $30. I regret that I didn't give him the money, and I still might give it to him next time I see him, but thats how I felt. Today I go home with Barnett and I plan on giving him some extra cash for taking me to school and back home with him this year. And I am going to, but why is it easier for me to pay Joe and harder for me to pay Dean? Historically wouldn't Dean be my closer friend? Shouldn't I pay Dean first and Joe second? Is this why my close friends leave me when something better comes up? Anywho, I am just rambling and bitching now. I didn't mean for this blog to get so long but sometimes when I let my heart do the blogging and I don't really think about what is coming out it gets kind of long. I bet when my heart blogs evreything is kind of jumbled and makes little sense. Oh well, I really like it when I blog from the heart and not my brain and it has been a while. Alright alright, the end.