Random Blurbs

God damn my last week of break feels unorthodox. It also seems liek it is going so fast and is actually very stressful. It feels like I am having to remember stuff to do and just a shit load of little things. I cant explain the feeling. It feels like there is always something hovering over my head and I cant get rid of it. Its the feeling you get when you have something on the tip of your tongue but cant get it fully out. I dont know, I'm just living my final week to fast.

I have a list of shit to do. I need to finish my "Pimp My iPod" project and I'm just getting through the C's. I need to clean my laptop out. I want to make a movie while I can. The other day while we were at Cub Foods I bought some corn startch so that I could try and make some fake blood. I needed to buy some red food coloring but those son bitches are expensive. I figured I dont even know if this is going to work so I would test the corn stratch and see if I can make the formula and then add some sort of coloring. I still need to find me a plain black long sleeve layering t-shirt. On top of all that I need to just chill, have fun and relax. I also want to write my song before breaks end and for that to happen I need Ben to have time. On top of all this, I just lost my fucking brand new iTrip that Ben bought me for my birthday. I didnt even have that thing for a week. The last time I remember seeing it is at Dawsons house when I took it off to put more songs on my iPod since the new iTrip goes into the bottom USB port. I remember taking it off, but I cant seem to find in anywhere, hence it is lost. I need to search Dawsons house a little more and my house. It would sure be nice to have a fucking iTrip agian. And I am to broke right now to drop $25 dollars for a new employee bought iTrip. FUCK!

Otherwise I've been sitting around doing the same old shit. We put it the Dane Cook Tourgasm documentary DVD for a little while at Dawsons this morning and I've come to realize I am fascinated by the tour life. I think it would be the ultimate experience. I love road trips, and when I'm chilling with friends I am sitting on my ass doing nothing but video games and dvds anywho. Then I lead myself to think, if I did it 4 months like many entertainers do, would I go crazy and just be sick of it? Still, it sounds like an amazing experience.

Lately, some of my friends have been so annoying. They aren't doing extremely gay shit or anything, but some of the hypocritical, ignorant and just stupid ass shit they say eats away at me. Probably about 3 of my friends just fall into the same group. The three of them have to exact same "focky" (Thats fucking cocky) personality. They always have to be right and they always have to be better then the next person when they are actually some of the least talented people I have ever come across. And they are so ignorant that they just yell shit all the time to put people down. I just wish they could take a step back and see them selves. I highly doubt this would ever happen because they are some of the most self centered people you will ever come across. Maybe self centered isn't the right word, but fuck it. Half my brain is trying to find my iTrip still. I wish I could list specific examples that occurred recently but I cant/wont in fear that it will offend some people. Maybe I will do it tommorrow morning or something. I fear that I am actually blind as they are and cant see myself doing the same thing. That would be the worst to find that out. I pride myself on being able to see the whole picture and make rational and reasonable judgements. The weirdest thing, and I feel horrible that I participate, is that the three rip on each other all the time. And they rest of the group joins in on the bashing cause everything they say of each other is true. But what they dont understand is what they are saying applies to them as well. No one has the heart to tell them because of the way they are. They would just reject the fact that they could maybe be wrong and reverse the criticism to the teller. They need to understand that the world might not revolve around them and god hasnt blessed them with the talent to do everything. Actually, god probably hasnt blessed them with any talent except for be blind. This sounds like the most D-Bag thing I can say, and it makes me sound like a huge hypocrit, but know that I am saying this knowing I come off that way and know that I dont mean it like that, but I probably am better at pretty much every single thing. There has to be a few exceptions, but still. Forgive me if my last statement is unforgivable, I dont mean it in a bashing manner but rather in an informative manner. But dont get me wrong, they are still pretty good people at heart. Actually one of the dudes probably has one of the kindest, yet tempered, hearts you will ever come across. They are good people and for the most part I am very greatful that I have crossed paths with them in life, but sometimes it just burns to be around them and their "Frocky," ignorant, and blind personalities. God damn I am a mean person haha. But my blogs are here for me to vent.

Let me ask you this. Do you think it is better to lead someone to think they are right to make them feel good or tell them the truth and ruin their whole world? Do you think it is okay to talk trash behind someones back because you cant confront someone of their wrongs? You need to vent when something is bothering you. I always believed in doing the "right" thing. Always tell the truth because in the end its much better. Well I still believe in that, but it is fucking hard. How can you just take down the support beams to what someone has believed in for so long? Its tough.