Anything that happens in life, or questions about life that I can think of. Please feel free to comment on any of the topics I bring up. I enjoy reading other perspectives. Now stop reading the header you loser.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Love and Fear

Watch this clip and tell me how you feel.



I know I feel frustrated. Why is it that when we watch things from the third person it's so obvious but when we are the party involved our vision becomes tunneled?

This is not a fake scenario. This type of stuff always happens to me because I sometimes question what I'm being taught. It happened this past Saturday to me but I don't care to go into detail about it. Look out for this type of bullshit. Don't put up with it.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

I'm Dumb, Stupid, Closed Minded, Ignorant, And Arrogant

Well, just burning time before class again. I am finished with midterms, yahoo! If I get a B on my midterm papers, I will be happy. They are like uber shitty and my citations are poor. But at least midterms are over! I think I have one more test next month and then finals. Then winter break! Hoooody hoo. But then spring semester, aww. But then spring break! Hoooody hooo. But then finals, aww. But then I graduate! Hooody hoo. But then I have to enter the real world or figure some major shit out, aww. It doesn't end does it? Oh well, as long as the important things in life stay intact.

[Give up everything, leave without out it, 'cause we are not coming back]

I'm looking forward to the Underoath concert, Gears of War2, Left 4 Dead, and when does Watchman come out? Zack Snyder is kind of a gangster and even though the Watchman trailer didn't blow me away like the 300 trailer did, I have to peep it. It's Snyder, it has to be good. Just make sure you guys don't go to an AMC theater on the weekends. It's fucking $10! I don't think I've ever paid that much for a movie before. And when I ask, "when does Watchman come out?" I can easily Google it (Fuck Google, Yahoo! is kind of the o.g.) but I don't. Because if I did, I'd have nothing to talk about. I'm kind of a people person. A SOCIALIST! Oh no, a fucking communist! Scaarrry! Like Halloween. And Saw movies. Halloween gives college girls an excuse to show off their large, firm breasts and their ass-cheeks. Impressive. (What?)

[Let go of me, let go of me]

So the issue of religion has come up a lot in my life lately. I really don't know where I stand when it comes to religion and it bothers me a little. I mean, if I don't know what I am thinking and feeling, who does? God? What do other people think about religion? I've been watching a lot of Bill Maher's commentary on religion and everything makes sense, but it's up to me to put all the pieces together. Not Bill Maher, or god, or atheists, or conservatives. Everything about religion seems so cult like and everything logical and rational says it's just so stupid. But how can the whole world believe in this? Is the whole world that afraid that there are some things in the world that can't be answered? It doesn't bother me that I nor anyone has the answers, but that everyone is so agitated by it. It affects everyone, even if you don't believe in religion. If you're an atheist, you're an anarchist and a devil lover. It's just a huge mess.

[I'm the desperate, and you're the savior]

This weekend I think my church is attending a Christian concert. It should be cool. No, it's not the Underoath/Devil Wears Prada show although that is very Christiany show and my church should go, haha. I am hoping there is a little movement instead of seats but I don't see how dancing conforms to church views. Think about how crazy that Oath/TDWP show is going to be? Last year I couldn't handle one hour of Oath. Now throw in TDWP? Insane! And a little Saosin and Person L? Icky icky. Let's not forget P.O.S, haha.

[No one's listening anyway]

I just read an article that said Bill O'Reilly got a contract renewal where he gets paid 10 million a year. That's a lot of money. I guess he isn't voting for Obama? Haha. The money doesn't bother me because O'Reilly's show brings in a lot of viewers and that's what drives the broadcasters. What bothers me is that it's Bill O'Reilly. And this was said: ""Bill O'Reilly is the most prominent and influential name in all of cable news, and his contribution to the network's success cannot be overstated," Fox News chairman and CEO Roger Ailes said." Is it not scary that someone like Bill O'Reilly is INFLUENTIAL?

[I was to scared to show, what I am]

I also read an article questioning New England Patriots coach Billy B. Some people are blaming him for Rodney Harrison's leg injury. The Pat's were up by 30 some points and kept Harrison on the field late in the 3rd quarter I think it was. I am going to side Billy on this one. I'm someone who believes that you fight to the end no matter what, don't look back. A football game is technically 60 minutes, so you will play 60 minutes. Football is supposed to be played by people like Bill Belichick, Hines Ward, Peyton Manning, Brett Favre, Troy Polamalu. Someone got hurt in a football game. If you are shocked by that, then I don't know what you are watching.

[We are the cancer, we are the virus]

So I watched the Myspace artist on artist interview with Zac Efron and Ashley Tisdale last night. Which lead me to watch a shit load of other ones. Serj Tankian is the fucking man. Mark Wahlberg is weird. But does anyone else want to be Zac Efron? Dude's kind of cool. I wish he would choose better roles, be a little more Jared Leto like. Except Leto is so serious it's kind of scary. And I think I am developing a little secret crush in Ashley Tisdale. It's a secret! Shhh! I was originally a fan of her because she was in Donnie Darko, which is the best movie ever (Shut up if you think it isn't. Let's fight!). I really haven't seen anything else she has done except for High School Musical 2 which I saw on my flight to Korea. I also saw a Harry Potter which was pretty cool. I know Tisdale is also a singer and sold like 60,000 copies her first week. Which is really good, and kind of sad. I think Senses Fail and Underoath sold like 20,000 their first week and that is considered good for them. Maybe I'm a little unfair because I haven't listened to Tisdale's album and maybe it is legit. I am assuming it isn't. But I am assuming it is better than Paris Hilton's. Plus, I learned that Tisdale is strait edge. That's way coool, especially for her because she is probably around other stars that are drunk, or high all the time. I kind of have a thing for people who are strait edge. It's hard to find people who have that philosophy. Donnie Darko role + strait edge. Is there anything else? Haha. I read that Joe Biden doesn't drink alcohol which is uber cool too. I read Al Frankin is strait edge too. He gets my vote, haha.

[It's all my head, if you want, you can look inside]

Anywho, I have to go eat lunch (Subway, my Mommy bought it for me, tee hee) and then go to class. Then I have to film. Which is kind of dumb seeing that I'm the editor. So I have to help on set, and then while everyone else is at home, I have to edit when it comes time to edit. I get double the work load...weird huh? Oh well. I'm kind of dumb, stupid, closed minded, ignorant, and arrogant.

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Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Staple Everything

Staple your damn mouth.

[But who would want me anyway...]

I have one of two mid-term papers that are due this week all finished. One more due tomorrow. I get to submit that one online so I'll be "working at home". 2 of my classes didn't meet this week and it was fricken sweet.

[I have nothing left to give]

Not much really to update on. Just writing 'cause I have an hour until my feminist film studies class. Class is kind of a joke. Not because it's a feminist class, but because of what we do. I would consider my self a feminist so I thought it was going to be a lot more interesting but it hasn't turned out that way. The class meets once a week and we watch a movie pretty much the whole class period. Then we blog on that movie and read abstract essays that go like this, "blah blah blah, vagina, blah." I thought we were going to be all like, "fuck people who don't believe in equality". We watched Basic Instinct in that class and one of the students had to leave due to the graphic sexuality. She looked to be very "pure" and churchy. You know, one of those kids whose parents doesn't want them to see the real world so they block them from everything violent and sexual. And so the first time that child sees something violent and sexual they don't know how to react to it. My parents didn't shield me from everything but they did limit the quantity. They also told me that I need to learn how to separate fantasy and reality. If you're a parent and you can't do that with your child because it's "weird" - just quit. But no one should take my opinion on this, I'm not a parent and I have no idea what I'm talking about. I honestly mean that. How could I have any understanding of how to raise children, I've never done it before. This is the trouble with blogs because you lose the timbre of the voice. I'm assuming people are thinking I'm being sarcastic when I say don't believe me because I'm an arrogant mo fo. But I seriously mean it. I have no experience being a parent, so I can't offer good advice. It's just how I feel. I just feel bad when people aren't educated on real life things.

[Accept the answers without a question, it's easier]

Anyone else bumping this new Senses Fail? I got a lot of mixed feelings for it, but it's Senses Fail, I could never hate it. It's tough Still Searching had to be their 2nd full length (I consider it their 3rd album though, 'cause that EP is so legit), 'cause that was a epic masterpiece. This new album doesn't sound as nearly as polished as Still Searching but Buddy comes through and speaks words that can lift any confused soul. I can't wait for the next time Senses Fail rolls through Minnesota so I can scream these new tunes out with them. Screaming is the right word too, a lot more screaming on this record. I'm pretty sure I've seen Senses Fail more than any other band. I want to know which song on this record was inspired by the latest Rambo movie. Oh, and how come Minnesota sucks for shows. So many tours skip over us. But I guess it's better than the Dakotas. This fall I'll be missing, Anberlin, Scary Kids, and Senses Fail. I chose not to go to the Chiodos 'cause Escape The Fate has fallen apart with the departure of Ronnie and their guitar player. But I do plan on hitting up this epic Underoath show. (I think I should not use the word epic.)

[turn my cuts into scars]

Well, I didn't want this blog to be long so I'm going to end it. Oh wait, no I'm not. I saw Quarantine this past weekend. I liked it of course, anything dealing with the death of stupid human beings and massive amounts of zombies is all good. There are some issues with it but nothing I couldn't get over. Check it out if you like zombo flicks. Just don't pay $10 for it like I did (Damn you AMC!).

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Random Chunks

I have an hour until my video production class and I need to waste a little time. This blog is going to really random and crazy, so please leave now. I've been watching a lot of avant-garde films and been thinking artistically a lot lately so this might be the reason behind this.

[We no longer listen to honesty because it has no glamor]

Fall is in full effect isn't it? Good or bad, I don't really know. I don't have any good hoodies, so I'm kind of cold.

[Please don't forget about the things that make you feel]

Reasons why I am not voting for Nobama:
1) He is a terrorist.
2) He is an Arab.
3) He's black.
4) Sarah Palin is better.
5) He doesn't like cars from Japan and South Korea.
6) He likes the middle-class too much.

[Like a magician, you made his faith disappear]

It seems like every time around this year I think about a whole bunch of shit I wish I didn't think about. I don't know what makes me think these thoughts. Maybe school, maybe the fall season and that everything is taking in a last breath of air before they hibernate, maybe friends and family, maybe music since usually a lot of new albums come out around this time. I really don't know. Last year wasn't as tough and I wish I knew why so I could follow that path. Maybe it was my trip to Korea? God, I really miss that place and I really miss the family back in Korea. It's crazy to think that I could meet some people for the first time in my life and feel like I've loved them for 21 years. Part of me feels like that is due to Korean culture, but another part feels like because that's the power of family. When I was a teenager and I thought I was finally understanding life and getting a grasp on everything, my Mom told me something that has really stuck with me. She told me that family would always be there and that you should put family first. At that time, I felt like your friends could also be a part of your family. I thought you could build these amazing relationships with friends and have those bonds be as strong as family bonds. You can build amazing bonds with friends, but they will never be "family" and I understand that now. I think it took me 3 years to finally digest that fact. It's really some shit I didn't want to really believe, but there is nothing I can do. Humans run around and around in these circles and it's no problem to them.

[There is a light that never goes out]

I'm so ready for Obama to be our president and for Bush not to be our president. For the people that voted Bush in 2004, please think about who you are voting for this time around. Actually think. Please.

[Please wait around for a while, because I promise you, I will]

I super excited for this little game called Gears of War 2 to come out. It comes out November 7th and it has already gone gold. That's pretty cool. I've been practicing on Gears 1 so when Gears 2 comes out I can be tip-top. Horde Mode: Dick, Jon, Min. Holler.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

When I'm An Old Man

I always hear people say, "everyone is a liberal when they are young."
So you're telling me that as we age, we become greedy, grumpy, and turn into liars?

Well, that's not 100% true and stated very bluntly. I have too much homework to expand.

I look forward to how my views on the world change as I age. Hopefully blogging will still be cool then.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Season: Fall

I've never seen this Paramore video before. I just saw it and it really makes me feel weird. But like a good weird.



Fall is when all the animals go away and nature goes into a sort of "coma." But for me it makes me kind of happy. I still feel warm inside knowing that everyone is getting ready for the freezing (Minnesota) winter. That we are all going to bundle up. I love the feel of the chill on my face. I love the feel of that same wind brushing against my hoodie. I love it when my Mom tells me to bundle up. Enjoy these last few days of Earth everyone.

(Does anyone know what that "Eternal Sunshine" filter is that they use in this video? To make everything seem so homely and like it was shot with a video camera from the '70s? I really like it. It makes me feel nostalgic.)