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I'm actually going to copy and paste from a MySpace blog I wrote. How sad ahaha.


I still have some time here before kickoff at what seems like Bass Lake Lambeau. We got a good old 3 on 3 backyard football game planned and then chilling with the best peoples in the world. My Mom just informed me that there is going to be a family lunch at 1:30 which made me upset cause I can't go since kickoff is planned for 2:30. I might have to go see the ball drop with my Mom and Dad to make up for it. I really want to go to lunch with my my family and extended family but "Flash" called in so we could play and that just wouldn't be fair for him. I've pretty much spent every day with what I guess we can still call "The Hood." We got some old members back, and new ones and it makes me happy that we are the closest we have been in a while. I hope everyone reading this is spending the night with people they really care about. There are some names that would have been with us tonight in the past, but won't be but thats okay. I've come to find out that I can't hold on to some things no matter how hard I try. And if they are the ones that want to leave, thats okay. I still feel like a pussy teenager talking about heartbreak and friendship...but what are we living for then? Isn't interacting and laughing one of the most human things we can still do? Money only gets us so far, but with family, friends and love, I think its endless. While I'm on the topic of heartbreak I should really say thanks to Ben Lee (I dont think he reads these anywho ahah). We went through a little bit of a rough time, but I feel that he has been trying as hard as I am to mend things while we can during winter break. I know he has other peoples he needs to see and visit, work, and I know he has morphed into this party animal so I know he has keggers to attend and vodka to chug or whatever you people like to ruin your livers with, but it honestly feels like with what ever spare time he has left, he has dedicated to me. And the one time we have spent together felt like old times. No grudges or anything. Just Halo and music. It makes me happy that 16 years of friendship weren't put to waste. He even invited me to spend the day with his girlfriend when she comes down and he told me he would spend the day with me after work on my birthday. All of that means alot to me. And although I wish he could spend the day with us on New Years Eve, I know what New Years Eve is all about, and I also know there isn't going to be any Hennessy at Jons house tonight haha. And it means alot to me that he would invite be to chill with his girlfriend cause I know they usually "party" together. It seems like all my friends ban me from places where alcohol will be present cause I'm not going to drink. Mother fuckers, I'm still a social person. Isn't that everyones excuse for why they use it, to get loose?

Anywho, I feel really stupid cause I'm a 19 soon to be 20 year old grown man and I am talking about heartbreak and friendship. But come on, its my first ever heartbreak (Kinda gay that its not with a girl or something) and I think bonds between people are the strongest and most meaningful things in the world. Loyality, honor and those "unwritten" rules as well. The "human things" lets call them. I've become some sensative girl but thats okay, I am happy with the person I've become. I can be more honest to myself and everyone. But I understand it changes the way I present myself and if you want to make fun of my cool, I'll probably laugh with you. But understand you need to know the fine balance.

Anywho, enough of about the serious shit. I wish I could write about the fun times yesterday but I really need to get ready for kickoff so I will write about them later. Maybe not here and just in my blogspot. If its good I'll copy paste. But we had some good times last night.

As for this football, if we find ourselves a camera person I will edit the footage and post a second football video.

I hope everyone has a beautiful and wonderful New Years Eve. Its not my most happy time of the year which I will explain later to the people who don't know why. But enjoy your time and stay safe. I'll be out on the road looking for drunk drivers to run into haha.

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!