Zombie Dream Chapter 10

Its brutal out in the cities now and it feels like we lose people on every mission now. I slipped and fell on my shoulder again the other day and I don't think its ever going to heal. Although we are losing a lot of people, I have been recruiting a lot of new families too. Families I feel will benefit our group. All the families I've brought in have young males that we can use in our missions and I feel like I'm using them but I tell myself its better for the both of us. Other people have stopped inviting families because I think they are beginning to understand and appreciate my judgment. It seems like all the families that have been killed are families I didn't invite. I think Connie now understands why I asked her to stop inviting people. I can kind of sense things with my intuition. I've been trying to interact more with families I don't know so I can build stronger relationships with all of them, but I've been bringing a lot of people in lately and its been tough. The other day when we went into town, there was this military camp that was giving out food. Looks like the military is finally ready to help out a little. Dawson and I watched the news tonight and they said the medical tests are going well and that they should be able to release some info soon. I tell Dawson to grab me every time he watches the news so I can watch it with him because I don't want to miss out on this important info. The survival segment tonight was funny like usual.


The new people I brought in have really been clicking. All the parents have been really kind to each other and they all look out after each other. The kids enjoy playing together and keep each other busy. Most importantly all the guys that have volunteered to go on missions have really been clicking. Everyone is very disciplined and our missions are in and out and we are losing less people. Actually, our last mission had zero deaths. Dick has come with us on a couple of missions and he has been very helpful. He asks to go out on more with me and the guys but I tell him that we need people protecting the hotel. Just an excuse to keep him here. Non of our Dads go on missions any more either and thats a good feeling. Slowly I've kind of been elected to be the leader of everyone here. It makes me feel good that people trust me now but I think it might be to much pressure to watch over 130 people or so. Slowly with new Jim's help I've been learning how to organize things. People are really good at not treating me like a leader figure and are not putting to much pressure on me. I don't see my family much any more. I actually don't see anyone much anymore. When ever I do have some spare time I dedicate it all to my family. The people I see most are Jon, Dean and new Jim and sometimes Mitch and Dawson. I check up on the mission groups a lot too. I spend most of my days now working out, collecting info, training people and meeting with missions groups, seeing how people are doing, crunching numbers with Dean (supplies and things), talking things over with Dean and Jon, then maybe spending some time with my family when I got time to spare. The days pass way to quickly. And my shoulder is still fucked up. I came up with this idea to group our little military into classes. I group people depending a lot of things like discipline, physical ability, weapon use, etc. Again I use my intuition to place people into their groups and the people have been really understanding. I clump people into 5 levels, 1 through 5. Level 1 being the highest ability level and the group that gets the toughest missions and level 5 people the lowest group. A team consists of 4 people and I randomly formed teams but I moved some names around because I wanted the groups to have good chemistry. Right now there is only two level 1 teams. Jon, Dean and I make up one team and the other level 1 group is lead by a guy named Tom and has 3 of his buddies. Tom has been with us for a little while but when ever we went out on missions he has definitely shown his ability. He is very quick and disciplined and sometimes I think he should lead everyone so I can go back to my normal life but he tells me he couldn't handle it. Our groups have a really good relationship and Tom and I look after each other often. His group worked with my group a couple of times but after this grouping system was created I don't deploy our teams together. Waste of resources. A lot of people ask me why my team only has 3 people and not 4 and I still don't have a good answer why. Sometimes I tell people that I'm saving that spot for rising star and sometimes I use Dicks name. Dick has been put into a level 4 team with 3 other people that I don't know but he gets along with them well. Dawson and Mitch some how got placed in the same team in level 3. Mitch keeps telling me that he and Dawson don't have good chemistry and that my judgment is wrong about this one. Mitch gives me a lot of shit for placing him into a level 3 team and often asks for a promotion but usually I'm able to dodge him with Jon and Dawson's help. Level 5 is our biggest group but mostly consists of our fathers and they don't get deployed but they are asked to defend our home when we are out.

I had this dream the other night and it felt so real. It was a dream about us in the future and we had built our own place in an isolated area with a very strong defense. I brought it up with everyone and they all seemed interested and someone asked me if I thought it might be a good idea to try something like that. I kind of think that its to radical of an idea and that it might be to risky, but I told everyone that we can all think about it and that we should ask more people about it. Dawson and Mitch have been hanging out with these girls a lot lately and when we have a special "The Hood Killers" dinner we asked them about the ladies. Sounds like Dawson and Mitch found them selves some girlfriends. I ask Dawson where he met this special lady and he says, "in this fucking hotel, duh." I was going to ask Mitch the same question but after Dawson's response I felt that my question was unnecessary. Jon tells us that there is this really hot chick but that he hasn't been able to talk to her yet. Dawson and Mitch ask more about Jon's crush and after they figure out who Jon is talking about they tell Jon that they will hook them up. They table turns to Dean and Mitch asks him if he has a love interest and he informs us that he doesn't. Dean busts out a couple of 40 Year Old Virgin jokes then Mitch asks me if I found anyone yet. I laugh and I tell him, "are you kidding? I'm to fucking busy dude." Dawson comes in and goes, "Ya! He is a big shot now, he doesn't have time!" Mitch then asks me about Amanda and I tell him I haven't talked to her in a couple of weeks. I correct myself and I tell him that I haven't seen her in a couple of weeks then I ask him how she is. "Ya, she is still hot and very lonely," then Mitch nudges elbows with Dawson since he isn't sitting next to me. "But seriously, you should have made a move after Jamie got killed," Mitch states. I tell him that it wouldn't have worked out and I tell him that if things don't work out with his girlfriend now that he should hook up with Amanda. Mitch quickly snaps and tells me not to jinx things.



Things have slowed down a lot and I have a lot more spare time on my hands but I don't use it very wisely. Just more working out and planning stuff. Sometimes we get really bored so the two level 1 groups go out to areas where people might be and help them out. The news gives us some really good spots where people might be trapped. Sometimes I find some good people and I bring them back with us but we mostly go out to kill some creatures and to entertain ourselves. We don't do this often and it really is a very unnecessary risk. And I feel like I'm setting a bad example and my Mom really hates it. This one time Jon shot the legs off of one with his new shotgun and and smashed its head in with the end of his gun then got mad at him self for getting blood on his shotgun. Dean once killed like 10 of them at once with a well placed grenade. I don't really have any cool stories. I'm all business and I just go for the head and then I set my sights on the next one. Tom fights the same way I do and his guys are probably more disciplined then my guys. Jon finally hooked up with that really cute blond girl he told us about and it wasn't because of Mitch and Dawson. I told her that I needed to meet with her to talk some things over but basically I tricked her to run into Jon. I try not to abuse my power but I figure just this once for Jon. After being around her a couple of times I kind of don't like her. She seems very high maintenance and she is kind of a bitch but as long as Jon is into her I won't say anything. It just seems like she is into Jon because he is a level 1 fighter and she likes the fame but she show flashes of kindness once in a while. Mitch broke up with his girl friend the other day but he isn't taking it to rough. They had a rocky relationship so it was about time the ended it. Dawson is still with his girl friend and they seem to really like each other. I think Dean is hiding it but it seems like he has been talking to someone himself.

Jim calls me over to talk about something so I rush over to his room. As I'm about to walk in Amanda walks out but we don't say hi to each other. I ask Jim what he wanted to talk about he asks me what I thought about that dream I had. I tell him that it was just a dream but that it felt very real. Jim informs me that he has been talking to a bunch of people and that people like the idea and that maybe we should think about doing something like it. I tell him that I think its to risky and that something like that would take a lot of resources and time. He agrees but tells me that life is always going to be dangerous now and that we have plenty of time. He brings up the point that if building this place means that we have a safe place for the future that we should do it. I think about it and I tell him that he is probably right and that we should talk it over with everyone else. He jumps back in and tells me that he has been talking about it a lot with people and that everyone feels like its a good investment. I tell him that I'm glad everyone agrees but that we don't have the materials and the skills to build something like that. He must have planned this thing out pretty well because he then lets me know that some of the people I brought in have very handy skills. We have some technicians and we even have an architecture. I tell him that if everyone agrees to it, we should try it. He thanks me and I thank him and then I walk out. On my way out I cross paths with Amanda again and I open my mouth to say hi but she sneaks inside her room to fast and I hear the door slam. I walk over to Tom's room first since it is closest and I talk things over with him and he tells me that I'm the leader and what ever I choose he will follow. I get kind of embarrassed when ever people say that kind of stuff to me and I tell him not to talk like that. I tell him we should act like friends and for him not to treat me like a military superior. He agrees to it and relaxes a little. He cracks open a beer and offers me one but I decline. I tell him that he should try to cut alcohol from his diet. I don't even support my request and he agrees to it. I tell him I'll get back to him when I know more. I walk over to Jon's room next. I walk in and I find him and Krista watching a movie and I tell him I'll come back later. He waves me in and tells me that they are barely watching the movie and that we should talk now. I have a seat and I present my idea and he tells me that it would be cool. Krista really likes the idea and asks me if she can design her and Jon's room and I tell her of course. I walk next door to Dean's room to talk things over and he tells me he likes the idea.

We have a huge meeting about the plan and it sounds like we are going to try it out as soon as we can. Jim pulls out a map and points out a couple of suitable spots. We all vote on a spot that is off on its own but not to far from the cities so we can drive in a get stuff when we need to. The plan is to start collecting things we need to build the place as soon as tomorrow and after we get everything we start. We also found a temporary place to stay for the builders that is be closer to the site. I hate the idea that we will have 3 locations to defend but this is just the way its got to be. We have enough people to defend all 3 sports now so I think it'll be okay. I meet with the architecture and the other people who are actually going to put this thing together and we plan everything out. They had a bunch of great ideas that would give us the strongest defense and the most comfort. I tell them not to be shy and that if they need anything, to just tell me.