Yay, Spring Break!

Just strung out some good Melee with Jon to start my spring break. One on One training, battle of the titans like the good old days. I forgot what it feels like to duel like that.
Tommorrow night equals 300. I am so ready to see this epic movie.
Today, I was down at the U for 5 hours, but I had class for a total 20 minutes haha. What a fucking waste of my time. I went to my history discussion and our T.A told us to start our break early because he planned a library feild trip but the library wasn't able to organize it out. So I sat around and wrote blogs at a computer lab. Then I had my Korean oral for 10 more minutes and went back to blogging while waiting for Joe to get done with class. I got home, chilled, ate, V.G'ed, now I'm blogging before bed.
Here is a good survey question. Are you confident or cowardly? I would say I am neither (balance). This is a bad example for my example question, but who gives a fucks. Like I'm not confident enough to walk up to a girl and ask for her number or give her mine, thats ballsy and kind of lame. But I am not shy or cowardly to the point where if I need to ask a stranger a question I can't do it. I am in the middle. I don't shy away from challenges, but I am not going approach it head on and over confident. I'll play it defensively and be ready for anything.
While in the shower I was thinking about my last post, about being more free and honest. And I thought a girlfriend would be something to really help me be more honest and more sensitive. Of course that is if I hook up with the type of girl I am picturing, and not just some stubborn bitch slut. Someone I could start a new relationship with and be totally honest from the start. Not to have any old roots and habits hold me back. Someone I could call up everynight and just talk about life. I think it'd be neat. This is not a note of deperation though, don't think that. I've waited many years for the right girl, and in the grand scheme of things, I don't mind waiting a few more. I am not going to rush into anything. I sound like I'm getting married haha. But I just want everything to be perfect. Not for me, but for her.
A couple more topics before bed.
I wanted to talk about western medicine. I don't really take any type of drugs for anything. For recreation, for pain, etc. But the people around me pop pills so easily. That makes it sound like they are doing drugs (technically they are), thats not what I mean. Like someone will have a headache and they ask for an advil right away. Doesn't sound to weird right? But isn't that shit still a drug? Its called a drug for a reason right? A foreign chemical that isn't suppose to be in the body? Don't you think you have a headache for a reason? If you have a headache, your body is trying to tell you something. That something is wrong and you need to change the way you are doing something. But instead, people choose to ignore the natural message by taking some advil to cover up the pain. Just because you numb the pain receptors in your body does not mean your body is still hurting. I've never agreed with this part of western medicine. They have a pill for everything. I understand sometimes, drugs are needed. We can't fight everything. If we are deathly sick, we need something. I've taken drugs before, but I avoid them at all costs. I think people should open up and try some Eastern techniques because they have a lot to offer. This section was suppose to be more articulate and was suppose to have a stronger arguement, but its late and I'm tired. Maybe I will take some drugs that will make me go to sleep. Thats a joke. This is probably another reason why I won't ever need to smoke or drink. I don't take drugs that are suppose to help me, why the hell would I take drugs that aren't suppose to help me? Taking good drugs is ignoring pain, that means you aren't paying "Attention." Challenge yourself and suck it up. I get scared that taking drugs will make it so I won't be aware of my surroudings. I like being in control of everything going on around me.
Last topic.
My sister. She is annoying and still going through this "I am a beautiful suburban girl and I can have whatever I want when I want and everyone likes me" phase. I feel bad for all suburban brothers. I know that if she grew up in Minneapolis, she would never be like this. She is so stubborn to. Narrow sighted. Not open to anything. I think I am very open minded and its hard to talk to stubborn people that give no chance to any idea. I think my sister is conservative. It feels like liberals are more open minded people and have more vision, well duh. She is going through this horrible phase, where she praises everything I hate. I enjoy modesty, she needs to stick out and get all sorts of attention. I enjoy challenges, she wants everything done for her. I enjoy fairness, she wants everything her way. I believe in loyalty, she believes that a friend is only good of they have something she wants. I believe in honor and doing things to right way, she believes in doing things quick. Respect, no respect. I think being reserved once in a while is important, she doesn't. God, if there is a god, and you are listening, please strike her with a bolt of lightning. Don't kill her, she is my sister after all, but teach her a fucking lesson. I'll donate some money to your favorite church or something. What a fucking scam. The church is a joke and catholicism is the worst. You can get your sins washed away by a priest? Isn't a priest pretty much a messanger boy to God? So next time I can ask the mailman to change some government plans for me huh? Oh well, I am tired and I probably don't make any sense.

Night!